This, too, must go.

Don't you think it's visceral?  

This silence that surrounds.

Like a tiny whisper speaking 

in the midst of heavy sound.

 

Don't you find it piercing? 

Does it not rattle 

through your brain?

An earth shattering reduction,

a shift to move terrains.

 

Can't you see the silence?

Rippling within,

punctured by the violence,

no longer held within. 

Oh, if it's not breaking,

the reality we know.

The foundation is shaking

society, lost it's hold.

This, too, my love

must go.

Today

Today...

 

I cut myself with a butter knife. 

I always heard the dullest knives were the most dangerous...

but, really!? A BUTTER knife. Why!?

I sneezed and spilled my coffee.

All over my boots. 

That's what I get for filling it too full. 

 

I shook my canned latte

that I bought at Trader Joes

Guess what?

It exploded 

All over my car cup holders.

 

Stepped in dog poop

in my Fry Boots

Saw them on the porch today

still sitting in the rain

 

Ya know what is 

one of the hardest things you'll ever do?

Clean dog poop off your handmade shoe. 

 

Okay, today was kind of rough. 

The odds were not with me.

But, if you can take on little stuff.

You can take on anything. 

Dog Brain

What I need is a million tiny seconds 

all captured into one

A cacophony of meaning

BAM! 

Then, it is done.

I'm laughing in the corner

I'm crying on the stairs 

I swear I couldn't see you

Until, you were no longer there 

Jesus Jesus Jesus 

Or whoever you are

teach me how to see the light

before it turns to dark

I cannot find the switch 

to turn the fucker off

and in this distant saddness 

I think I just forgot 

like glow worms in a dark cave

tiny incremental thoughts 

I'm supposed to be writing essays 

clearly I am not

oh, seriously dog brain

the deepness

turn it 

OFF! 

 

I

I procrastinate and drink too much beer. 

I don't eat dinner until 10 pm, and I'm addicted to running.

I wear too many colors and can't end conversations.

I'm very indecisive, and I overthink the smallest things.

I never want a hamburger, and I mostly live on chocolate and cheese. 

I am go with the flow until I mean it, and then I won't give in on anything.

I'm always chasing dreams, and they are often too obscure and too big.

I don't know how to sit still, until I'm fast asleep.

I like dresses in the summer time and crazy colored jeans.

I brush my teeth in the shower, and I'm nostalgic for memories. 

I want to hike all the mountains and swim in all the seas.

I need to feel alive, in every part of me. 

I never want to waist the sunshine, and cry at dad stories.

I prefer cats to dogs and my independence is misleading.

I am way too empathetic, yet struggle with feelings.

I always strike up deep conversations and laugh outrageously.

 

I have a lot of imperfections.

I can't promise they'll improve.

I'll always sleep past my alarm.

I'll always hit the snooze.

 

I know you have moved on, now

...and maybe, I should too.

 

But, it turns out, just as this is me...

 

I will always be in love with you.