What I Should Have Said

I blurt out

"I love you"

You call my bluff 

(I wasn't bluffing)

You tell me

"You've loved lots of people"

What about him

What about him 

(I've learned the difference

between love and infatuation)

(There are different types of love.

Young love. Hopeful love. Desperate love. 

Real love. It's hard to know the real love.)

 

(I don't know how to tell you. 

I realized it was real love.

My love for you.

It's a love that's in my core,

it won't go away.

It's that I would build a 

life with you 

love.)

 

You tell me, 

you don't love anymore. 

 

(I don't believe you.)

 

I'm too afraid to call your bluff.

You look too sad.

It may be my fault. 

I don't know how

to take that back. 

 

(I'm sorry.)

 

You tell me you're sorry,

you're really in it right now. 

(Can I hold you up?)

 

(Helpless)

 

(Can I trade my useless love?

For your happiness?)

 

I tell you I don't give signs 

to random people.

 

You tell me 

you're not random.

 

(And you never will be.)

I see you.

I see you still love.

Nothing more and Nothing less

Is it intuition?

Or, inception

in those eyes

I don't know how

to explain it 

but, that smile

drives me wild

Give me something 

to believe in

remind me 

that its fine

we're all hiding 

bloody scares

did you catch a glimpse

of mine

Wink and dance 

around me

surround me with 

your heart 

even if you know

I may tear it apart 

 

Let yourself be open

I'll do my best to comply 

in the trail 

of broken hearts 

we're all just trying to get by 

Life and love and loneliness

I see through the mirage

we're all still in love

with someone 

still fighting back 

the fear

that if another person

gets in

they might ruin 

us again 

So, put your arms out, 

darling 

I am complicated, yes

but if you kiss

my tiny tremors

I'll be your 

lovely complicated mess

 

Nothing more

and nothing less