Monday, April 26, 2021

Reality

the question sits heavy on my soul
I see the rudimentary colors
but, I can't seem to let them go

pink, and green, and turquoise
jasmine, salmon, red
is this sporadic spectrum
just something in my head?

can you see the explanation, 
even without the price?
the renewed information, 
just doesn't feel as nice 
 
perhaps if we remember
that forgetting's just as well
we can stay swathed in these colors
where light and dark can't tell 
 
a master piece of music
a synopsis of art 
do you see the meaning?
can you tell the two apart?

oh, tell me tell me
nothing
I prefer to feel the sound 
let my imagination run wild
fill in the grey around 

make me make me smile
I know its all a dream
but, really what's reality 
if not what we choose
to see

Wednesday, April 21, 2021

That's Me

Yes, that's me
who's smiling as a tear rolls 
from my eye
no, no, I cannot explain
I may never know why
 
One minute I am spinning 
smiling at the sky
the next I'm laying on the ground
shaking as I cry
 
Perhaps, its good to know
that feelings can be real 
even if I'm never sure
how I really want to feel
 
Love or adventure
always torn between
can I give up half myself
and still keep all of me
who am I supposed 
to feel like I'm 
supposed to be
 
Is he holding out his hand?
Should I default to the sea?
Jump on in and catch a wave
See where that takes me
 
Will there always be a distance
that is just a little out of reach 
will the ground ever feel 
solid, beneath my 
moving feet
 
laughing laughing 
out loud
and crying silently 
yes, dear, I am happy now
and sad
and mostly 
just me 

Tuesday, April 6, 2021

Wondering Soul

Scraped knees and stolen hearts
I was going to tell you 
I loved you
but my words
they fell apart
 
Can you see it?
the feeling
in my eyes
as I cling to you
 
Please please please
Don't let me go
But, you do
because you love me
because you actually know
 
That loving a wondering soul
is letting them go
 
Just be "Eden" you say
as you walk away
and we both cry in the rain
 
I wish it didn't have to be 
this way
 
They say loving someone
is letting them go
I understand that now
But, I wish it wasn't so
 
I am a wondering soul 
 
You don't try to hold me down
make me your own
you see my wings
and you let me go
 
I wish it wasn't so
 
Just stay "Eden"
No, no, no
Do you know how much
I want to be
anyone who 
isn't me
 
It is a hard and lonely life
being a wondering soul
 
I cry in the rain
as you let me go
 
It is a hard and lonely life
being a wondering soul 
 
My heart breaks 
again
as I watch you go

It is a hard and lonely life
being a wondering soul