Unapologetically.

You don't think you get to love me with the lights on,

and I don't think you get to love me with them off.

I am not 100% sure who you want to be,

but I am 100% sure who you're not.

You think you can tease me for trying.

You think you can make me get off.

I'm not convinced that you're lying,

but I sure as hell know that you're wrong.

There's a hole in the floor of the attack,

and I found your diary there.

It was filled with a fuck ton of static,

but the truth in the irony... scarce.

I don't know where you think we are going,

I don't know if you think I will join,

but I know in the light of the morning

I will want more than this half-hearted joy. 

It's a deep dark sense of foreboding, 

that haunts me awake and asleep.

As I curl up next to you hoping, 

that one day you might actually see

that the girl in the room here with you

is not who you hoped she would be

that she'll never mold into something

that is more than unapologetically me. 

Let her win

There’s coffee in her motherboard
And there’s whisky in her skin
I’d have cleaned out her intestines, 
But they are just too god damn’d thin

She’s been smiling at the devil

She’s been winking at the man

He followed her to the bathroom, 

And I think he let her win

Did you see her eyes, 

So brilliant 

Is that hope, or love, or greed

Where the hell’d she get that spirit

God, will it, I’ll never know

I think the sun is hiding

From her stubborn angry soul

I saw it come out to tan

And instead meet the moon glow

God, let me let her go

There’s coffee in her motherboard

It must be on fritz, 

For she just started dancing 

And told them all to go eat shit 

There’s whisky in her skin

I see it leaking from her pours

But, wow the smells intoxicating

I just want to let her in

Now I see her dancing,

I think she doesn’t care 

She gave up all she ever wanted

And then said, fuck it, I'm not scared

“If I can’t breathe my own way, 

Who the hell do you think I am!”

So now I lay here watching,

As she spins and twirls away 

She was all I ever wanted,

But I tried to make her stay 

There is coffee in her motherboard 

There is whisky in her skin

She’s lovely in her own way,

Even to my chagrin 

God damn, I let her win