Friday, April 26, 2024

Not to be contained

Oh please don't love me outright
You see, you see, you see,
it was from a past life, that someone better could possibly be me
but, no no not this time, 
this time it's just a test, 
a beginning and a middle and 
no one ever knows the end
because before the final chapter,
well, it turns out that she fled
to a different reality 
with a different cast
where she smiled the same way 
and called out different names
and everyone believed that it was from the depths of somewhere darker that 
she must have came
but the truth oh the truth is 
invention and reinvention and trial and error
here she is in the same dress
spinning around and around and around
driving some new man mad
can he keep her? 
what a laugh 
if he only knew, 
that he was just you
just a little less polished
just a little less cute
just a little more used
she's a runner, little lover 
she's a phoenix in a cage that you designed
before she burst into flames 
and you come to find
that the only person she's ever been is mine
so, please please don't make the mistake 
don't follow the pattern, oh so boring and plane
and please don't love her outright,
she isn't yours to contain 
she just leaves, slips the trap again
laughing all the way, as she cries and cries
through the pain 
of looking into new eyes with a new name 
and wishing it was yours all the same 
all the same 
all over and over and over 
again 

Thursday, April 11, 2024

Everyday

Give me one reason
all excuses be damned
when I asked you for an answer
you just threw a wrench in all 
my plans

Oh cut me with your opal
the diamonds too damn
tired of harsh blood stains
in the iron 
of wild cards drawn 
in the night
I want a slight glisten 
of color 
held too close to the light

Give me something different
dear lord, it's all the same
oh life
oh life
well, Jesus
it's just so everyday

I want ripples and torrents
I want chaos I'll regret 
how I tire of this silence
the stagnance of the stay 
in the languid stillness 
that is, well,
just so every day

So, please give me
a reason
to run so far away 
to jump from all the clifftops
and will the sun to stay 

Give me something 
passionate 
and violent 
make me feel the pain
How is it better than the 
nothing 
of 
just so
everyday