Darling

o You take me in this moment.
Wash me, darling, make me clean.
For I'm tarnished and I'm broken,
though these scars remain unseen.

I don't deserve you,
all your kindness.
I'm full of bitterness and doubt.
And I wish to love you wholly...
but you're always left without.

How I long to be so normal,
to except such a good thing.
My dreams are bigger than my body,
and they take control of me.

I want to believe in all the love songs,
and say you are all I need.
But I'm a greedy little creature,
and instead it's everything.

I want time and I want freedom.
I want love and I want pain.
I need excitement and fulfillment,
climb the mountain,
climb again.

I can't stop and I can't settle.
Sitting still just makes me scream.
How I wish that I were different.
Then I could be your everything..

I should have given you a warning.
Darling, please... just don't love me.

Take the time to be here
smell the sea beneath your feet
breathe the air that swills around you
let the water make you clean

Take some time to notice
what you want and who you are
are you meant to live this moment
are you meant to go so far

Take the time to wonder
am I free or am I trapped
do I want what I am taking
am I leaving nothing left

Take the time to ask
is it real and is it me
take the time to know this
all you wanted was so be
all you wanted was to need
all you wanted was to see
and god damnit to be free.

Take the time and leave it
give it faith and give it hope
but if you're screaming on the inside
...then maybe you already know.
take the time
take it
take it or just go.

What is it that you want
what is it that you hope
because you say you'll make it somewhere
you say you'll make it more
but all you do is stand their spinning
and you never know for sure.

So take it.
Take it all
it's only time, dear after all.
Take it right, and left, and backward.
Take it now and let it fall.

Because it wasn't what you wanted...
No.. no it wasn't that at all.