letting go of anger

Keep your hands where i can see them.
i'm at the edge again,
peak over slowly...
but don't you dare go away.

i always think about the falling.
is the bottom landing worse?
i guess i should have asked you...
lying far beyond my hurt.

it was in hopes that wings
might catch me,
one's that must have failed you.
i pretend instead your flying.
in my dreams this still comes true.

take my fingers off the trigger,
i won't pull it,
i'm just sad.
didn't realize all this fire,
could ever burn so bad.

then i close my eyes and wonder.
how it must have been
in your head.
give me something to hold on too.
let your fingers nit through mine.

i know they are just vapor.
but i hold them close inside.
close my eyes your in my mind.

give you back the knives i'm holding...
slowly anger's gone.
i sit and stare ahead.
instead.
letting my heart catch your fall.

you didn't deserve this at all.
you didn't deserve this at all.
you didn't deserve this at all.