Whatever Gets You High. 

Chapter 1: Decision.

My chest rose and fell, rose and fell with a thump thump thump that grew louder and louder as I stared at the screen. Even sitting here, at this desk, balancing on my plyometrics ball, doing no exercise whatsoever, I felt like I had just run a marathon. 

Relief, nausea, anticipation, regret, and excitement coursed through my veins all at once. 

"Did I do it? Did I really make this decision? Oh, god. Oh, god, oh god, oh god."

My mind went numb; my fingers tingled. The everyday sounds of the busy office seemed muffled and strange as I heard the familiar "ping" from my gmail inbox that let me know I had received my confirmation e-mail. $1400 gone, but I, me, this person, had made a decision. 

I was moving to New Zealand.