This morning I woke up with a stuffy nose, a tight chest, and a cough. It seems to be a common occurrence, like the cold that rattles through me never fully goes away. I can feel its restriction, imagining a chalky lining around my lungs and heart. When I breathe deep I can feel the deep tissue red from irritation, coated in that evil film that oppresses my ability to fully breathe. Sometimes, when I run and can’t seem to get the air all the way up through my lungs, I visualize the struggle it must fight past that chalky wall of illness. It tries to swim up through my lungs to the top of my chest, through my throat, but gets lost along the way. It sticks to the film and bubbles like caramelized sugar before turning to fudge on the walls of the organs I need to breathe freely. I wish I could draw it or show it in some way. The feeling and the mental image are hard to explain to someone whose mind isn’t constantly visualizing feelings.
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