Thursday, March 6, 2025

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Do you think you could love me, 
for the long run?
I mean, even when it's not fun.
When the nights are dark
and I have lost my heart
for finding things appealing.
When I am sad and complicated 
and need you to hold me 
despite my edges, 
so sharp that they 
cut like knives 
against your thighs, 
and I'm screaming for my life.

Could you take it?

Would you want me then?
When I can't swim,
and you have to save me 
in an ocean filled with sharks
and decay.
Would it be worth the pain,
or would you leave me 
there to drown 
on my own,
alone?

I've been left before.

On the ground screaming 
for more more more,
but that person walked away
and I got up.

When he came back, 
he was out of luck.

See, I have learned to be 
what I need 
for me,
and sometimes that is adverse
to having company,
to believing that someone 
else could truly 
love me for myself, 
and not the easy going person
I am trying to be
in all honesty 
she's just a partial version 
of who I would be...

If I actually, 
trusted you 
to love me.

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