Fade

Can't you feel me breaking?

As I lie here next to you, 

you're quite arms 

around me,

my body shakes and shifts. 

What am I supposed to say?

That I just want to be loved 

and no, no that's not it

I want to be loved and supported

I want to go on a trip 

and have someone who

wants to go with me

 

I want to go to a wedding

and be with someone who 

doesn't kick and scream

I want to feel like

a fucking team

I want to be a part of your life

I want you to be a part of mine

I don't want to be with someone

and still be alone all the time

I am leaving, always

but, even still 

you could leave with me

or wait

or support me 

as I go

 

I would work with you

I actually would

but, no one ever wants you

if you don't fit 

their mold

 

So I morph

and I try 

and I change

and I'm fine

and I cry

but I'm fine

I'll get over it 

I'll get over it

I'll get over it 

again 

again 

again

I'm fine

 

I loose my mind

 

Maybe I'll stop trying 

just let it fade away

Maybe that's the anwser

 

I'm lonely anyway