again and again

so here we are again. Thank you eden for never wanting anything you can have and always wanting everything you can't. Even.. even if your caught by surprise and get more than you thought you wanted, which lets face it, happens more frequently than not, you still want more and then are disappointed.

it's like you said, "o i can never have that"... and all i really want is a sip. Like oo i'll never be able to try chocolate soda.. it doesn't exist. Then, all the sudden, bam there it is and someone is handing you a glass. All you want is a sip right? So you take a sip.... and guess what??
Yea.
You want more. Awesome.
Probably would have been better off to keep thinking there's no way in hell you could ever have it. Now you know you can.

Know you can, but then you can't. What the..!!!???

Enough. I'm going back to sipping water and being happy.. but am I happy? Am I satisfied with that, same old.. that self assuring..
no. not really.

and if i could have it. If i actually got a whole glass. Endless glasses even...

would i even want it anymore?

or would i decide a sip was all i could really handle..

ugh. i want my cake. i want to have it and eat it. i also want it to want me..

that doesn't even make sense.

Awesome. Good job eden..

you did it again.